Back in 2014, I lost two babies. Twins, actually. It was the toughest point of my entire life and honestly defined me in ways I can't even explain.
Here are all the posts I have written about our journey through life after that loss. If you know someone who may need to hear about something like this, or needs a friend during a similar situation, someone who needs support, feel free to direct them here.
We lost our twins: one at 8 weeks and one at 21 weeks. Lily was a Vanishing Twin, we lost "her" at 8 weeks in March 2014. Jackson was stillborn on June 12th, 2014 at 21 weeks. It took me a long time to sort out this grief and loss in my life...a life full of what ifs and what happeneds; a life so different from the one we thought we were going to have this year.
If you are here because you want to read about our journey and support us through love and prayer - THANK YOU!! We need all the love and prayers we can get!! Thank you for sharing in our love for our babies. Thank you for standing with us during this storm. Thank you, so much, for your prayers!
If you are here because you have lost a baby, I am so so sorry. Nothing I can say or do will help that pain, but I know from experience that reading about other's journeys through loss can help. You are not alone. Please feel free to contact me by email. I'd love to hear your story! If you want to share your story here on my blog, so that the world may know your baby, just say so and we can work that out too. Writing has been an incredible comfort to me. I do it for me, I do it for my babies in Heaven, and it really helps.
Here are all of my posts about the subject.
The loss of our first baby
My experience with a Subchorionic Hemorrhage
Journey through loss:
God is not done with me
A Beautiful Memory
Your Story: Part 1
Life Goes On
Your Story: Part 2
Your Story: Part 3
What to expect when you are not expecting
Back into the world
Living in this world & that world
Death & Life
A Rare Bird: Review of a beautiful memoir about child loss
Here we go, October
Resources for Stillbirth and Pregnancy Loss:
Still Standing Online Magazine
Pregnancy After Loss
Carly Marie: Project Heal
Sufficient Grace Ministries
Beryl Ayn Young
Stillborn and Still Breathing
Going to these sites will connect you with many, many others. It's hard to imagine that there are so many of us out there, but if you look hard enough, you will find us.