Now that we've gotten passed 10/21 - the "due date" and the memorial, I feel like I'm losing steam on grieving. That's a good thing! I don't feel so guilty moving on with life, enjoying the little things each day, and appreciating the blessings that God has given me. I still have my moments and last week was very hard, but I am feeling a lot better. I think the struggle through last week gave me lots of hope and strength.
Today's theme is healing ritual. My healing ritual is my walks in the evenings, catching the sunrise when possible. Now that the days are getting shorter, and chillier, and rainier, I haven't been going as much and I am sad about that. Even though I am feeling better emotionally, I still need to get my butt out there and exercise. I know it's good for my overall well being. The weather looks like it's going to be nice and fallish this week, so I am making a goal to get out there 3 times, at least. Next week after daylight savings, I guess I'll have to get used to walking in twilight or the dark. Dave may have to join me for those!
I love my walks, and I know they helped my healing journey so far. I listen to Oceans over and over, and pray or talk to Jackson and Lily, and just reflect on life and plan for the future. It's been a great way to clear my mind each evening, and to be sure my priorities are straight in life. It's help keep me stress free so far this school year too, and the walks have also helped keep me in a healthy mindset. I always try to hit my 10,000 steps on my fitbit, if I didn't reach that goal at school.
I hope to keep this ritual up even through the winter, but I have a feeling that I may have to move the ritual over to the gym, or maybe some yoga inside. I love being outside in nature, but dark and chilly walks may not be as enticing as a sunny and warm summer evening walk. I'm going to miss those!
I am thankful for this healing ritual. Cheers!