Today is the last day of the #captureyourgrief project. I have enjoyed doing my daily photos, and captioning them accordingly with the special prompts. The project really helped me explore my grief, and figure out where it fits into my life and how I can live around it.
Admittedly, after our memorial on the 21st, I lost steam with it. I think after saying an official goodbye to Jackson and Lily, I was drained of my sad emotions. As a usually peppy and happy person, my heart couldn't hold my sad feelings much longer. I felt like I had gotten over the mountain top of the grief, and now I'm on my way down. It's still a long, long way down, with a gentler slop going down, so it takes more time to journey through. But at least I'm on a different path than I was before. I'm happier. I smile more. I can think and talk of the babies without that huge pressure on my heart. They are a part of my life, just as any children are, but also very differently.
So with that, I end this project with one of Jackson's beautiful sunsets. The sky never ceases to amaze me each night, no matter the weather. It's funny how something so normal and everyday never caught my attention before this. It's almost always so beautiful. I love thinking of Jackson, and Lily, as I watch the sky (and right now, the leaves too) light up on fire with the orange and the pinks and yellows and reds. Like it's a painting, just for me :)
Thanks for sticking through this month of grief posts with me. :)